"When nothing is sure, everything is possible." - Margaret Drabble

I’m finally at a stage in my life now when I feel hopeful and at peace and happily single! Yeah, ever since I broke up with my long term bf in June 2006, my life has been in disarray... 2 guys and 10 months later, I'm finally at a happy place.

At the present moment, I’m open to dating if someone interesting comes my way, but I’m not really looking... nor will I commit to a relationship again, unless someone sweeps me off my feet and I am totally in love! I think I rushed into things too much when I started dating again in September, only 3 months after my break-up... While it was comforting to have someone to hold me, I was emotionally unavailable...

Now I am, but I am also happy to be single and enjoying all the single perks... like randomly kissing a cute 23-yr old on my birthday just because I can! Ha, ha...

My friend gave me a card with a really inspirational quote in it:

"When nothing is sure, everything is possible." - Margaret Drabble

Those words are my new mantra these days... I find them to be truly inspiring... often times, we get so uncomfortable with uncertainties in life... that's why people want to get married, know where they are going with their relationship, career, life, etc, etc... We always want to be 'sure' and to 'know' about outcomes in life...

But what I do learn, coming to my 30s, this year, is that: it is a beautiful thing - that nothing is 'for sure' or 'done deal'... you know? It means, you're still open to all these wonderful opportunities ahead that you otherwise couldn't explore if you already have a 'sure thing'... be it career or life partner.

I used to always say, I want a certain something by the time I reach a certain age... but now, I realize that by stating it like that, I’m actually limiting myself to only achieving those things... it's like I have blinders on and only focus on those things that I’ve set as goals...

Now, I’m a lot more flexible and open to changes that life could throw at me... I wont' say I want to go back to school, get my PhD and be a professor in 5 years, because I don't know what life holds in the future and I don't want to limit myself to just that... instead, I’ll say, in 5 years, I want to be in a career where I am financially well compensated, a job that I love doing and look forward to every morning, that will provide job satisfaction, and gives me the freedom to travel and time for myself to reflect and think and be creative.... it could still be teaching at a college.... or it could be something else...